What The Fuck'd You Expect

punka55chix @ 2008-06-04T19:23:00

2008-06-04T23:24:26Z

my deadjournal

http://punka55chix.deadjournal.com

punka55chix @ 2008-05-31T01:23:00

2008-05-31T05:24:06Z

i &hearts sean

punka55chix @ 2008-05-31T01:22:00

2008-05-31T05:23:00Z

i missed a few days in here. i bought Apple Green dye for my hair the other day.. yeh guess what? it faded away again! fuck. so im dying it back to brown with normal hair colour that you get at your pharmacy... or walmart...etc.

anyways, Rancid + August + 2 whole days = im speechless

yeh

i cant wait!!!

punka55chix @ 2008-05-29T14:52:00

2008-05-29T18:56:51Z

punka55chix @ 2008-05-26T15:03:00

2008-05-26T19:07:24Z

ok so i bought the hair dye... yah it didnt even work. it completely washed out of my hair. so now my hair still looks like its just bleached. im heading back to Out Of The Past to get a new hair dye. like Evergreen.

i bought an Operation Ivy t-shirt on ebay today. I want it now, but it takes like 6 - 10 business days to get to me. fuck.

punka55chix @ 2008-05-24T19:35:00

2008-05-24T23:38:29Z

i just finished green mint icecream... or whatever its called. i bought my green hair dye.. its really green. Neon. im about to head over to my moms. she toild me im not allowed to dye my hair green tonight, holy wtf. i'll do what i fucking want. and apparently im not allowed to bring MY music to play cuz apparently no ones gona like "punk" she said. fuck whatever. im heading over there, and im bringing it... with my green hair and my booze

punka55chix @ 2008-05-24T13:40:00

2008-05-24T17:47:58Z

today is my moms birthday party. i bet we're all getting drunk.
i still have to go get her a present today. im going to buy green hair dye.
I'll dye it tomorrow. Devon comes back tomorrow. i miss him.

Why don't you take your social regulations and shove them up your ass

2008-05-24T02:59:20Z

im sick of the fact that i have to smoke outside. i bought a wicked Misfits poster today. its up on my livingroom wall. seans in the shower shaving his head. i wanna dye my hair. green and black i think. better head down to Out Of The Past for that. its the only place i can buy good hair colour. i hate manic panic. it sucks balls. im gonna go get a Leftover Crack poster tomorrow. i saw it today but i didnt have enough for it. my plan is to cover this apartment in posters. oh yeah....

im waiting for my GST and tax money to arrive. with that i get new tattoo and pierce my lip. im looking forward to that. ive been talking bout piercing my lip for a long time. i had it before but it closed when i had to take it out to work at Cadbury. i hate that place. i never thought i could get sick of candy but apparentl;y you can. anywho im going OUTSIDE (omg) to smoke.

THIS WAS POSTED TO COMMUNITY whipme_chainme

2008-05-23T17:53:59Z

*Name:: Alicia
*Age:: 22
*Gender:: f
*Status:: engaged wanting open relationship
*Sexual Preference:: BOTH
*Sexual Fetishes:: Handcuffs, being tied up, being hit, play rape, prostitution
*Hobbies:: shopping for sex toys, porn,
*Interests::tattoos, piercings,
*Favorites:: black, chains, needles, P.A.I.N.
*Pick a word:: cuntsuckerfuckface
*Would u Suck a Fuck?:: yeh
*What do u think of this community?:: good to know im not the only one who feels this way
*Fill in the blank, Lydia (me) __________::suck my cunt

punka55chix @ 2008-05-23T13:25:00

2008-05-23T17:33:37Z

im so tired....
i gotta go out and get a blind for the bedroom window today. hopefully not too expensive. this is definitely the best apartment ive ever had. im sitting here sipping dollarama coffee lol. cheap. we went to the reserve last night to buy cigarettes. we ended up getting 4 bags lol. holy 800 smokes. i imagine it'll keep us going for a while. sean bought me Wendy's last nite... mmmmmmm. yummy fast food. i did some work in the baby's room this morning, got the closet organized. its sooo messy in here from all the boxes. moving shit. it seems like we'll never be organized. when sean left for work today i watched him go through the courtyard... hahaha stalker!!!! jk. a part of me wanted to run out after him and hug him one more time. sometimes when he leaves i get sad. a part of me is becoming too attached. is that a good thing or a bad thing??? i dont know. anyways, im off to take a shower

toodles you noodles

punka55chix @ 2008-05-22T14:11:00

2008-05-22T18:20:43Z

r.a.n.d.o.m.n.e.s.s.

.beer.
.white.
.green.
.rainbow.
.high.
.blue martini.
.pornstar.
.dye.
.black pants.
.ring.
.kiss.
.tattoo.
.bar.
.dance.
.him.
.a girl.
.concert.
.drums.
.posters.
.popsicle.
.lollipop.
.music.
.black eye.
.city.
.drive.
.computer.
.photoshop.
.blinkies.
.sparklers.
.lava lamp.
.walk.
.a fuck you.
.punch.
.nemo.
.a crazy lady.
.memories.
.sex.
.pierced.
.photo.
.and a "screw you"

if you know me, you'll understand my favorite list... if you dont, you wont, so why are you reading this if you dont know me????

nothing

2008-05-22T18:03:09Z

Everythings moved into the new place. I kinda figured that it would have been the easiest move ever since its like right next door... but NOOOOO...it just had to be the hardest move everrrrrrrr!!!!ARRRRRGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! but its all here now. the apartment is post-nuclear. theres stuff everywhere. omg omg omg....

im waiting for my check
Waiting
WaItInG
WAITiNG!!!!!!!

need hair dye. new pants.

Need MoNeY.. thats it.

seans at work. im going up there to meet him later. I have to go get groceries and cut him some keys. i suppose i should get going.
im off to change my clothes.

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punka55chix @ 2008-03-31T15:13:00

2008-03-31T19:22:41Z

i want to go back.... WAYYYYYYYYYYY back. to before sean. say good bye, start over, end all this. and keep things dark. Im thinking of putting devon up for adoption. so that i can run around and do WHATEVER i want. I love him and I d0ont want to see him suffer. But since sean is leaving, i'll have to anyways. im done with this rap shit for a while. i dont like it right now. i miss my old shit too much. i just got my monroe piercing and in a couple more weeks im piercing my lip. I cant wait. but i have to wait til this one is unswollen. im out

punka55chix @ 2007-09-12T01:59:00

2007-09-12T06:00:49Z

im still not keeping up on this everyday. ahhh. im cutting my hair off. fuck it who needs long hair anyways. anyways thats it..
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punka55chix @ 2007-09-08T12:42:00

2007-09-08T16:52:42Z

i guess i should do this more often. maybe i didnt have enough going on in my life to write anything or maybe im just fucking lazy. i dont know. i want the sun to go away. i dont like it. i want it to be dark. so i guess i better update everyone on the news. im 6 months pregnant and having a boy. i picked out devon for a name. im not with tim anymore we broke up in like may. dont really care. Im back with Sean now and he lives with me in hamilton. im feeling pretty pessimistic right now. but it feels good i like it. you know some people are pretty fucked up. i could be too but it doesnt bother me if i am. i dont give a shit what you think. i feel like punching some people in the face. they deserve it. but at the same time im way to tired to really give a fuck about any of them. im not naming any names. but maybe i should so when i look back and read this i'll actually remember who i was talking about. ah fuck who cares. im contemplating on whether or not to go downtown and get my lip pierced today. a nice lip ring would make me feel better. maybe.... i should be cleaning right now. my apartment is fucking dirty. seans in dunnville. i cant wait til i have the baby and get back to my old size. im sick of my belly showing. i hate maternity clothes they're fucking ugly. this entry is sooooo random. fuck this im out
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im sorry

2006-07-22T18:02:58Z

all i can say is "ahhhh" :( im crying. what was i supposed to do when this relationship only hurts me more than i think it hurts you honey. everytime i turn around something happens. and i've been here before... this situation and this felling. this feeling thati will never make you happy, that i cant be who i should be and who you need me to be. its getting near the point where i KNOW i HAVE to leave. if you hated me... would it be easier? if i hated you... would that be easier? because sometimes i really think thats how it is going to be. and i cant even barely write this entry because i am crying so hard. uncontrollable tears that have been built up inside, that i could not cry around you. i love you and i know i've let you down. because i always let you down. i cannot express my regret for all the lies and trouble. everytime i look at you i feel hurt, and sorry. i know you love me, but at the same time i know that when i walk away after i finish writing this that you'll not come looking for me. but i wouldnt look for myself. because i know that your love is not with all your heart. i shouldnt have pushed you to be with someone you didnt have feelings for. and i should have left you alone. i made a mistake... getting involved. but now our love is NOT the mistake i made, because i love that i love you. but i hate that i hurt you. i took your life and turned it upside down. and i cannot put that back together. i corrupted your heart and your mind. im sorry....

Alicia

punka55chix @ 2006-01-05T10:12:00

2006-01-05T15:18:25Z

New years......... was good. i started off by drinking at bryans, then went to the bar where i met up with matt yemm and lots of other people. and people kept on buying me drinks. YAY i guess. anyways, i went home with matt, lol we had to walk all the way across both bridges and all the way through the snow at like 3:30 am to his moms house. we got up around 2:30.... then i had to make the walk all the way back into town again, but by myself this time. booooooooo. ah well. i got really drunk though and thats good!

punka55chix @ 2005-12-29T15:56:00

2005-12-29T20:58:51Z

at the library again. boorrrrreeeedddd.....

tuesday i went to matt yemm's house, cuz he's down for the holidays. i ended up staying the night, we watched movies like all day lol. then i went home on wednesday at 10 pm.
anyways, im so bored nothings new... nothing to write.... over

(Killing Me...)

punka55chix @ 2005-12-13T11:34:00

2005-12-13T16:36:37Z

If you've got love in your sights
Watch out, love bites

When you make love, do you look in the mirror?
Who do you think of, does he look like me?
Do you tell lies and say that it's forever?
Do you think twice, or just touch 'n' see?
Oooh babe

When you're alone, do you let go?
Are you wild 'n' willin' or is it just for show?
Ooh c'mon

I don't wanna touch you too much baby
Cause making love to you might drive me crazy
I know you think that love is the way you make it
So I don't wanna be there when you decide to break it
No

Love bites, love bleeds
It's bringin' me to my knees
Love lives, love dies
It's no surprise
Love begs, love pleads
It's what I need

When I'm with you, are you somewhere else?
Am I gettin' thru or do you please yourself?
When you wake up, will you walk out?
It can't be love if you throw it about

I don't wanna touch you too much baby
'Cos making love to you might drive me crazy

Love bites, love bleeds
It's bringin' me to my knees
Love lives, love dies
It's no surprise
Love begs, love pleads
It's what I need

I don't wanna touch you too much baby
'Cos making love to you might drive me crazy
I know you think that love is the way you make it
So I don't wanna be there when you decide to break it
No

Love bites, love bleeds
It's bringin' me to my knees
Love lives, love dies

Love bites, love bleeds
It's bringin' me to my knees
Love lives, love dies
It's no surprise
Love begs, love pleads
It's what I need

If you've got love in your sights
Watch out, love bites

(Yes it does, bloody hell)

punka55chix @ 2005-12-12T10:47:00

2005-12-12T15:44:24Z

school sucks.... im bored as hell!
amuse me....
waiting for robert to come see me..... someday...

punka55chix @ 2005-12-08T12:58:00

2005-12-08T18:01:53Z

ok so i went to hamilton yesterday and i just got back now. My mom was bitching at me there because she says that i dont come visit her enough! well its hard for me to get to hamilton. and i stopped calling JR like 3 days ago... I GIVE UP!

punka55chix @ 2005-12-06T13:12:00

2005-12-06T18:13:48Z

ahhhh.....listening to the all american rejects.....
oh my god my discman is fucked! and my finch cd wont play in it..... whatever right? yeh whatever.....
so i quit drinking....AgAiN..... whatever again.
and i've stopped with the cocaine too....
that was just a bad thing.... but he shouldnt have given it to me all those times. whatever aGAiN.
and i've stopped talking to robert.... he says he's sorry for what he said and that he still loves me, but we all know that "forgiveness" isnt exactly in my vocabulary anymore. Fuck boys!!!! anyways im going to Erica's house when i finish here. im at the library by the way. yeh... so anywho, what else???????? i dunno..... last night i was lying on my bed and all of a sudden it came to me.... I HAVE Yet AnoTHeR ADDICTiOn..... AgAin........ SEROQUEL, and for those of you who have no clue what that is, they're sleeping pills. Now they say that sleeping pills are the most highly addictive pill out there. and thus they are correct! I am taking sleeping pills, perscription too.... but you know what... NOT MINE!!! i stole them from kayla when she lived with us in hamilton. and now i realize... WHAT HAPPENS WHEN THE BOTTLE IS GONE????? OH FUCK ME NOW RIGHT? my body has become dependent on them so how will i sleep when they're gone???!!!! and then after i finished freaking out about that... It finally hit me... I HAD AN ABORTION!!! I AM A MONSTER!!!!!! Arent i? was it that bad of a thing to do??? Someone please reassure me that i did the right thing!!! PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! once again... i dunno. HELP!!!!

punka55chix @ 2005-12-03T16:42:00

2005-12-03T21:43:49Z

Talked to JR on the phone the other day, he says i got to pick up my mail. blah blah blah.
anyways. i just finished burning a cd. and i guess thats it, i dunno, robert was gonna get a ride to come see me but i guess he didnt.... shit. oh well. :(

punka55chix @ 2005-12-01T15:55:00

2005-12-01T20:56:45Z

WAITING WAITING WAITING WAITING WAITING

HE'LL COME BACK. HE'LL COME BACK. HE'LL COME BACK.

HE'LL SEE HE'S NOT SICK. HE'LL SEE HE'S NOT SICK.

HE'LL COME BACK. HE'LL COME BACK. HE'LL COME BACK.

WAITING WAITING WAITING WAITING WAITING

....we.didnt.even.get.a.picture.together....

2005-12-01T20:54:47Z

i.wish.i.had.gotten.a.picture.with.me.and.JR.

why.am.i.still.dwelling.on.this.issue......on.this.boy???
i.was.only.with.him.for.like.3.weeks!!!
WHAT.THE.HELL.IS.WRONG.WITH.ME????????????
LOL.
honestly.i.know.why........because.i.still.really.like.him.
A LOT!!!!!!!!!!!

Now.i.like.him.more.than.i.did.when.i.was.with.him!
WHAT.THE.FUCK!!!??!

"%!@%?*"